Well, my guests have gone, my holiday is almost over and tomorrow I must go back to work *sob*
Actually I've had a fantastic break which has mainly involved sitting around with one of my favourite people in the world and nattering, reading, knitting and generally being very chilled out (okay except for the bit where I was forced to drink vodka and watch Eurovision)... the half daughter has been a complete star and took on her minion duties with dedication - her drink mixing skills are fantastic for her age ;o)... in a moment of utter dedication to the cause - and in the interests of preserving mine and everyone else's health and sanity cos, you know, me and something with blades and electricity would not be a good idea - on Monday she spent several hours with the strimmer clearing the meadow that was masquerading as my lawn.
They will be back, hopefully in October, when half daughter will be well into the first term of her photography course at college - and will have turned 18!
We also managed to visit AP, who has been let out of hospital to spend her final days or weeks in her own home. She was better than she had been but has been told that the cancer is now terminal... which made it difficult because saying things like "how are you feeling" and "you look better" or even discussing future plans is, I don't know, kind of wrong
Today after waving my visitors back on their way up to the northern wilderness where they reside, I also waved my mother off for a weeks holiday in Cornwall... she's meeting two of her friends she taught with in London before I was born.... I shudder to think what they will get up to!
Anyway, this evening, rather than feeling that sigh of relief that my house is once more my own that I usually get when visitors leave, I am left for the first time in as long as I can remember, feeling rather lonely and depressed. Maybe I am actually starting to move forwards with the whole being able to deal with people or want company thing.....
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