Well, today I filled in my application form for my finals in November...... okay, I know I couldn't have got out of this, after all I've studied for the past three years to finally qualify in the specialist field I work in... but it took quite a bit of persuasion from my colleague (who is also sitting the exam, despite the fact her baby is due 4 weeks before hand) to get me to fill in the application for my place..... two exams, each of two hours in length, theory in the morning, practical in the afternoon (yes, really a practical exam in law... and it doesn't involve any form of mock court appearance thankfully) and it's all over...... well hopefully!
I hate exams.... in fact, I got to this point with my first degree in Chemistry having passed the course work for three years and then bottled it and didn't show up for my finals.......okay so I knew I didn't want to do anything with a qualification in chemistry by that point, but still, looking back now it was a bit of a waste! I don't want to rinse and repeat but with just under three months to go I am already starting to panic a bit...
I talked to my counsellor about it earlier.... and, leaving my abilities to panic for no real reason aside, it was pointed out to me that I have a rather bad habit of starting things and not finishing them.... whether we are talking about studying, projects I start or other things in my personal life .... so I have to consider loose ends this week.... what in my life is half finished, or even 90% finished, that I have just failed to round off and more importantly why I seem to have almost a phobia about completing things or as she put it taking the final step.... she'd also like an action plan of how I intend to finish some of these things...... which kind of got a raised eyebrow and a "we'll see"
I think having been forced to talk about it earlier it must be time to ignore it all for the rest of the evening and go take myself and my book to bed....
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