Yet the world still turns as normal.........

My dad passed away this morning.

It feels right now that there is a big hole in the world where he should be.......... yet around me everything goes on as usual. I want to scream and shout... "can't you see, my dad's gone."

My cornerstone, my rock, the person who I could always go to for help, who never judged me or what I did.  Who watched me try and fail, but never said I told you so, instead helped pick up the pieces so I could try again.  Who watched me try and succeed and was always there to cheer for me.  He's gone, and he's never coming back.

I can't pick up the phone and know he'll be on the end of the line to talk to me.  I won't ever get a quirky e-mail arrive in my in box to show that he's been thinking of me.  I won't ever be able to feel him put his arms round me and hug me, tell me everything will be okay.

Right now I want to turn the clock back, to see him one more time, to speak to him, to tell him how much I love him, how much he meant to me.

I hope he knew.