Not ready to say goodbye......

I am all ready for tomorrow......... that is to say, my bag is packed, the car is set up, the critters are ready to be dropped off at the dog sitters

But in all other ways, I am so not ready for this at all.

How can you be ready to say goodbye to your father?

If I could cancel tomorrow I would.

If I could turn back time, or even hold it still so I never had to go through tomorrow I would.

I can't see how I will ever be ready for this and I am not sure I ever want to be.