100 Words....

I haven't done one of these for a while, but the M/M group on Goodreads have started up a weekly flash fiction thread... so I thought, what the hell....

We’d talked long into the night about it.  But now the time was right.  I could feel the approaching dawn even through the thick heavy drapes that kept the room dark.

Pulling him up from the bed he stood before me.

“Ready?” I asked staring into his eyes.  He nodded.  

Stepping forwards, his arms snaked around me. I felt the cold metal of his watch strap against my shoulder, his other hand spread across the crack of my arse.

I heard him take a deep shuddering breath as he tilted his head to one side.

My teeth closed through flesh.

Deadlines!

My life, of a sudden, seems to be full of deadlines.......

I've a short story to write and submit by 5th December.... which is started, plotted, and being written... but well, so far as writing goes, until the deadline is really close I faff about and don't actually get on with it - which probably explains why I have difficulties in finishing off writing un-promised stories...

Then there's my mother's request for 3 knitted beanie hats for my nieces (sort of, they are my cousins' kids) - she asked me today .. and can I do them by the 6th December ... only then she can take them with her when she goes for the weekend, rather than posting them.... I haven't even started these yet - they'll take a day each, roughly, well 4 hours, but that's my limit for knitting each day or my joints start to rebel!

Work wise I am used to some of the deadlines, the ones for turning work round, but I have a deadline for my application for the deputy team leader post... which means I really need to get round to sorting out my CV to accompany it... preferably before the end of this weekend...

Then there are the dreaded Christmas deadlines...I need to have my cards and presents for abroad done and ready for posting by about 10th December......... which means at some point soon I need to get my finger out and actually work out what I am buying and go get it (actually I have bought some bits and pieces, I went to the shop for dog food this evening and came out with a bag of bits and pieces for people.... and the dog food, I did remember this time, on Thursday I went to the shop and forgot completely to buy what I needed....)

All this of course reminds me of the Douglas Adams quote - "I love deadlines. I like the whooshing sound they make as they fly by."

Maybe I should give up doing all forms of housework until after Christmas.... just so I can meet the deadlines...

Move along, nothing to see here.....

Hmmm... for some reason today the whole, smile, nod, tell everyone I'm fine version of coping fell apart....... in the middle of the office, which was really embarrassing.... the tipping point was something totally stupid and not even my problem

I then had counselling........ yeah, that wasn't so much fun either....

Tonight has been spent curled up on the sofa under a blanket feeling very numb and shut down........ I couldn't tell you what was on TV or what I tried to read...... writing was totally beyond me..... in fact, this entry probably isn't making much sense either.

I just want to curl up into a ball and cry....I'd also like to actually get some sleep .... possibly long enough to wake up when the world is a much better place to be in.... or I want some one to hold me and tell me everything will be okay

I also really, really want my dad back

Updating by numbers (though it could be by rants!)

1. It is bonfire night - or more properly Guy Fawkes night - the night we strange British people celebrate someone not quite blowing up the houses of parliament by lighting fires and burning effigies of him - though these days it's more an excuse for letting off fireworks ....... lots of fireworks......... they've been going off in great numbers from Saturday - though Sunday was Diwali which accounted for quite a lot of them.  Luckily the dogs aren't bothered at all by them and like to sit out in the run and watch - however, it was a bit much for Gretchen this evening as the kids in the flats at the end of the garden (kind of) are holding a display and letting lots off at the boundary wall......... Gretchen has just spent 5 minutes barking her displeasure at them!

2. I am totally and completely disgusted by Amazon and their delivery service.  I was offered a trial of Prime, their next day delivery, and on Wednesday night last week ordered a couple of things for my sister's birthday - on the grounds they'd be here on Friday for her birthday Saturday....... I waited in all day Friday - no delivery.  I phoned up the courier service - all they could tell me was that it was on the van - it never arrived.  Saturday they don't deliver - I had to rush out and buy an extra present - Monday I was told that it was on the van again - I stayed in - no delivery - I ranted to Amazon.  Today I was assured it would be delivered - but when I got home, guess what, no delivery and no card through the door.  Again I ranted to Amazon - only to be told that as they'd tried to deliver the parcel on three occasions, they were now returning it to Amazon!! I would be refunded in 2 - 3 days and if I still wanted the goods would need to re-order!  To say I was irate would have been the understatement of the week.......... my formal letter of complaint garnered a phone call from Amazon - they are investigating further!

3. I have had to put the heating on - that is to say the gas fire in the lounge - as we had our first frost and it's now not getting about +5C - don't laugh people in colder climates - so far, we've had lightly toasted dog and the smell of burning dust - but hey, it's warm in here - the rest of the house is like an ice box mind!  I really  need to try and sort something out about fixing my heating!

4. I wonder why I try to do NaNo - it appears I cannot write for myself - I need a deadline and someone to let down if I don't get it done!  I plotted, I planned, I had an outline........... I ditched it all to write a sci-fi M-preg story for someone..... I have a 5th December deadline....... i've got the first 1000 words done, and it's amusing me greatly - whether it will amuse anyone else we shall have to wait and see.

5.  I went back to work today after the first of my long weekends - I have another 3 before the end of the year - I wondered after about 30 minutes why the hell I'd bothered to have time off as I had a gazillion e-mails to deal with, loads of queries and even though I was off on Monday my team leader managed to need to text me with a couple of questions that she decreed couldn't wait - heaven forbid I have an actual day off at some point!!

Right that's probably enough venting of frustrations for one post - I am off to write more about my pregnant alien and his quest to find little emo-goth boy that knocked him up and break the good news to him.........

Saturday song.....

This one has been on the radio a few times recently, and whilst normally not my thing she does have a nice voice and the lyrics amuse me - it sums up completely how in today's society whatever you do someone won't approve so you might as well do your own thing!

There may be ranting ahead............

At least I've managed to make my sister a birthday cake!!

Tomorrow is my sister's birthday.... and being the first after dad died she's more than a little upset to start with.  She wants to open and play the video he e-mailed a couple of years back of him singing happy birthday to her, but at the same time doesn't want to at all.

We have plans to take her out for the day and keep her busy, there is a posh meal booked at a nice restaurant, there is cake (well half a cake at the moment, it's in three layers cooling on the side so I can fill it with cherry stuff and coat it in chocolate ganache later) and there will be presents.........or there should be!

I decided to use the Amazon Prime's next day delivery service... I ordered on Wednesday night, and yesterday they confirmed that they'd been dispatched, delivery was due today........ so I've been in all day so I don't miss them...... the tracker said between 10.47 and 12..47 this morning.... by 4pm I was getting ansty, but a note had gone up on the tracker page saying bear with them their driver was delayed

By 5.30 pm the last time they deliver, I phoned the helpline - to be told, not to worry the driver was experiencing some delays and that they should be with me shortly, phone back at 6.30 pm if there hadn't been a deliver.......so, 6.30 pm I am on the phone again....... only they can't phone the local depot because they aren't answering their phone - but I shouldn't expect a delivery today now

So, my sister's birthday breakfast at 8.30 am tomorrow, when we are giving her her presents, keeping her mind of things, stuff like that.... yep, her older sister hasn't even got a present for her..... I am not at all happy.... I have filed a complaint citing their incompetence, and requesting  a full refund of the 30 minutes I have spent trying to phone their customer service on the only peak rate number they have!

Why do companies make promises of next day guaranteed delivery if they are going to fuck it up completely??

I shall have to try get something else now, at silly o'clock tomorrow morning, as a temporary present - until the ejits finally deliver the presents I've ordered for her..........

I am also not happy because being stuck at home, in November, all day, with no heating, and it chucking it down with rain all day, means that I am frozen, stiff and my joints are screaming obscenities at me!  I want to go to bed now, but I've a cake to decorate!

October books........... Spooky !!

Well not really spooky at all.... Well, there will be because at some point later on tonight I shall curl up on the sofa and read Carpe Jugulum by Terry Pratchett (again) as this halloween I am in need of some fun and amusement .... and they won't let me terrorise small children who come to the door......

So anyway, it was October, books were read, 22 of them in total...

My pick this month would be Heidi Cullinan's Life Lessons, with Kendall McKenna's Strength of The Wolf and the latest Lang Downs Story by Ariel Tachna - Conquer the Flames coming close behind.  I am also really enjoying the Hell or High Water series from S.E. Jakes.

1.                It’s like this – Orbiting Jupiter (freebie)

2.                Point of No Return – N.R. Walker  - this was my PIFM book this month wich I really enjoyed - enough to pick up another by the author later in the month

3.                Beyond Duty – SJD Peterson

4.                A Pirates Life for Me – Tricia Owens - this one was good, but ends really abruptly, sadly it didn't make me go out buy the next book to see what happens, it just really pissed me off that the author felt the need to do that

5.                Racing for the Sun – Amy Lane

6.                Strength of the Wolf – Kendall McKenna

7.                Ethan in Gold – Amy Lane - I over did the Amy Lanes this month - 3 in a month really was pushing it.  I was looking forward to this one in particular, but whilst enjoyable I really wasn't as impressed with it as I was with the first two in the series.

8.                Drawing Closer – Jane Davitt

9.                On Fire – Zachary Drew

10.            Heart’s Home – H.B. Pattskyn

11.            Love Lessons – Heidi Cullinan

12.            The Locker Room – Amy Lane

13.            Bound by Danger – S.E. Jakes

14.            Bound for Keeps – S.E. Jakes

15.            65 Hours – N.R. Walker (freebie)

16.            Divide & Conquer – Abigail Roux (r)

17.            Armed & Dangerous – Abigail Roux (r)

18.            Nine Tenths of the Law – L. A. Witt

19.            Conquer the Flames – Ariel Tachna

20.            Catch a Ghost – S. E. Jakes

21.            Good Boy – Anne Tenino

22.            Long Time Gone – S. E. Jakes

I am about to launch onto a re-read of Thom Lane's Tales of Amaranth series as I picked up the 5th book to read as part of the Scavenger Hunt books this month and I realised I read them so long ago I need to refresh my memory - which may be a sign of old age!

I am not sure how much reading will get done this month as I attempt to write for NaNo... yeah, the reading may well win out!!